Now, I know that many people don’t want to hear, read or think about the current COVID-19 Pandemic. I totally understand – I too prefer to read as little about it as I can, but I thought it could be nice to have a little “Isolation Diaries” series in place of my Weekly Recaps for the time being.
Using this space as a way to share how I’m feeling and processing this all, as well as a way to share some positives as well.
I am currently on Day 18 of Social Isolation with Matt. I have made one trip to the grocery store, which was an event in itself with having to stand halfway down the freezer aisle to be spaced 6 feet away from others. The shelves are still bare of hand sanitizer and cleaner.. I got one of 6 bottles of the remaining cleaner. It’s crazy! We stocked up on a few essentials like fruit and veg, onions, nut butter (I only have pecans and walnuts) and one bag of gluten free pasta. Sticking to shopping every 2-3 weeks for fresh veg and fruit. Our freezer is really small, making it hard to prep lots of veg and meals. I just keep batch cooking – soups and chilis.
I have worked a few shifts at my Casual Job (as it is an essential service job) and finishing up Spanish now that it has switched to online classes for the remaining 3 weeks. I have reorganized cupboards, cleaned my house, started a garden, worked on a paint by number, baked and cooked lots of food, crocheted dishcloths, watched more Netflix than I’d like to admit and Skyped with friends and family.
Initially, I was really looking forward to this time at home. I am an introvert and REALLY really enjoy quiet time to myself. It was a great excuse to stay home and not have to hype myself up for socializing that really drains me. However, I found myself getting more and more overwhelmed and just feeling really anxious with not knowing when this will be over. This all started at a time when I was just about to get my life back into a normal routine of regular work after only working casual/on call since January!
I know that there are so many good things to come from this time, so on one day when I was feeling really overwhelmed, I sat down with a journal. I wrote out my goals for the next 5 years and broke it down into small steps. Things I can focus on now and things I can work towards as other things get completed like completing school and such. Sometimes you just need to take a step back and look at what you can control right now just to have some peace of mind. I also wrote out a gratitude list and found that super helpful. Some things on that list were: sunshine, time with Matt and Charlie, my garden, skype and phone calls, the ability to slow down. Yeah, we’re all stuck in our houses and many of us don’t have jobs right now, but it won’t last forever. I am taking this all one day at a time and trying to listen to my body more than ever. I am productive. I am lazy. I wear pjs more than I will admit.. but it’s all on my own schedule and I’ve craved this slow pace for oh so long. It’s really nice to not be go go go all the time like society pushes on us with having to work 2 jobs or work and get your education while being in debt for that education.. or worse, working at jobs we hate and are working to make someone else’s dreams come true.
This time at home has brought me to both highs and lows, but it also brought me clarity. I got this new vision for what I wanted to do and couldn’t figure out why it never dawned on me before. It fits perfectly in with my lifestyle goals and dreams. I’m working on getting the ball rolling for that, so will let you all know when I get a few more things aligned.
Anyways, I’m not really sure where I was going with this post, but I just wanted to share with you how I am coping with this virus. I have had many moments of overwhelm, exhaustion, frustration and sadness, but there is an end to this crazy crisis. Later we will all be looking back on it and think how crazy of a year 2020 was! It’s certainly been eventful.
I will add my 2020 Spotify playlist if you’re in search of any new music and link my Instagram where I’ve been putting some of my recipes up during this isolation time.
I encourage you to take this time to listen to a new podcast, my personal favourite is Ologies. Create some art even if you’re the only one who see’s it. Write a gratitude list. Connect with loved ones. Spend a whole day wrapped up in blankets listening to the rain or with the sun pouring in. Watch the sunrise in silence. Create a meal with only what you have in your pantry as many times as you can. Just breathe. We’re all going through this together and more than ever we need community. We got this!
How are you finding Social Isolation? Discover any new hobbies or hidden talents?